A life without LIFE. Is being a waif, a restless wanderer.
I feel lonely inside the crowd. Can hear silence in spite of the screaming voices around me. I wanna run away from this sign of emptiness that is now so powerful within my heart. I wanna push away from these walls that are suffocating me. I gotta pull away in able to soothe this fear that’s attacking me. Don’t you ask me if I’m strong! I’m still here in front of you!!! Look at me! See how I’ve tried my best to face you with nothing but this strange truth that I lay before you. I’m not pretending to be who you want me to be. I bare myself and let you see me entirely as who I am. You have seen me being weak and hoping that it makes you stronger. I have strength hidden in my soul. I just don’t know how to pull it up yet. I may be out of balance. Not knowing where I should stand if I look through my eyes. So let me close them and see through my compassion where I should be going. I’ve lied and denied to myself that I will never need someone like you to be there. But see how my heart pushes me to get closer to you. Out of my confusions and in the middle of everything I opened my mouth asking for you to lighten up the things that seemed to be unclear. Now I must admit that I am drifting away to where I forbid myself to go. My faith alone can’t light up this dark river. I gotta move before it flows again. Coz if it does, I will lose myself again.
3 comments:
first of all i wanna thank you for everything... But i want you to know that i never did lose my faith i prayed everynight, every minute of a single day jesus belongs to my heart...If you think i did lose it...I never...Thats why i'm still here becoz jesus is keeping me alive... I cried that night becoz you're right... My soul is so tired... So much... so exhausted... Thank you for letting me cry with your eyes looking at me coz most of my tears was been witnessed by GOD & JESUS... Thank you for being my sis... I'm sorry if i can't open things that's been changing me...i'm not really good with words really... I'm still waiting for a sign from GOD where i must place myself... Thank you sis for everything in you...i mean everything...you've been a 2nd mom... i mean it...ok... don't like to cry here in internet cafe (maraming ebs)... hehe...
eherm ehem...can I come in?am i interrupting someone?well,i accidentally discovered your new blog,i had no idea where to find it,i saw your comment at Joyce`s site and followed you here..
its good to see you both getting along well and so close with each other...words cant be said..why not here? :)
i love your creations,from the very start.and its good to hear that you`re blogging again,not becoz of my influence,hehe...but there are more soully things that cannot express thru words,only in this world and i believe that it helps a lot.
this is my fav. part:
"You have seen me being weak and hoping that it makes you stronger. I have strength hidden in my soul. "
very well said..,but one thing is for sure...you will never be lost again..coz you are smarter enough to relay on your experience..once..maybe twice...but not thrice..am i right?
hugs!!
keep up the good work!!
love yah!!
always be strong in faith...and endure till the end.
God the Father Almighty looks into the purity of one's heart.
In my case I am an artist...still a work in progress too.
Kindly visit my blogsss... http://spiritualjourney14.blogspot.com/
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